Life as We Know It

Well the girl that i like is at the rodeo… fo rlike family bonding time or something… but oh well i can understand y mom likes to do things with me… so on friday awaken was so stinking good!! God was really moving!! Pastor Brian preached about prophecy and speaking life into things! it was so crazy!! and i vow to lift up everyone with prophetic prayer! well if you werent there you really missed it but oh well there will be others. So i don’t have a Frontline meeting tomorrow (which sucks)! so after church instead i get to go to my 2 year old nieces birthday party!! me and this girl got her a fish and we named it sassy!! we are pretty positive that hannah is going tyo love it!! YAY! GO US!! well i guess thats all that has happened so far….

to talk to me about somethingin private… i dont know what it is but it has my stomach all in knots….

well how is everyin? it has been a while soince i have written anything so let me give you the latest update.  The one best friend that doesnt want to be friends anymore has now went from coming over every day to now once like every week. This has given me a lot of time to hang out with my other best friend, whom now that i have spent so much time with have developed a crush in her. Well the other night i was at her house and i just grabbed her hand, and then it turned into a really good night. Now for some backgraound me and this girl have dated before like in the 9th grade, then she dumped me and went on later to date two really big jerks. Well we started to talk about it and she said that she liked me too but because of some complications she wants to wait one month to see where things go and then go from there. Now we have to keep our relationship secret from everyone we know. Then at 5:30 this morning a guy that i had never met  asked to be friends on Facebook. i accepted then he strarted a chat, well by the end of the convorsation this morning he had come out to me and we had  a really big talk about Jesus. It was so awesome to witness to someone like that. He had told me that he hasnt come out to anyone besides me, so you know it had to be aGod thing for him to randomly find me and be able to just open up and talk about what he has been dealing with! and thats all that has happened recently….

So i just got done reading a really good book!! the title is Persepolis!!! it was so good. It is a biography of Marjane Satrapi who is a girl who grew up during the Islamic Revolition in Iran, and her coming of age tale. It was so easy to connect with and i feel like I know Marjane for my self. Also for such a serious topic, the book is filled with lots of humor!

well i just have kinda sat here today… i didnt have to babysit but oh well!! i hung out with my best friends but then one got upset and just left and my other had to go home too so now i am here by myself…

I have had the best past few days i can ever remember!!! it has been so freaking awesome!!! I love Jesus! and we got married!!! haha!! but seriously we are!!! and then i had the best night with my best friend ever!! it was so crazy we just laid in her bed until 4 in the morning talking completely open about everything.. i kinda think there might me something else that comes from this relationship…  i wouldnt mind if we became more than friends but since she just got out of a really bad realtionship it might take some time.. but she is definitely worth the wait! but we just really opened up to each other i have never bonded with a friend ever!! it was so incredible and i love knowing that the friendship is progressing!!! well to change the topic, i bought the book Persepolis today to see how it was. and it is kinda crazy (in a good way) it is about a girl growing up during the islamic revolution in Iran! i love it so much, it really makes me want to watch the movie!!!

this kinda sucks… i dont know what to do. i am just sitting here and i just can’t believe that she is sitting here crying over what she had decided to do… wow this is a weird turn for my life and i have no idea what i should do. she told me yesterday that she didnt want to hang out with me anymore and then my other friend went to have a talk with her, now my other friend has left and she is crying on my couch… well this sucks…

Well today one of my best friends told me that she didnt want to hang out anymore… EVER! :( so now i am pretty bummed out but ih well what can i do…. actually she said God told her to stop hanging out with me and go hang out with her sinner friends. But God told me something to!! and it was so crazy! I have been reading Songs of Solomon and i have really asked God what can I do to woo his heart. well tonight at youth I promised God that I would do whatever it takes to woo his heart, and as clear as day He said, “If you want to woo my heart stop being my friend and be my lover!” and of course i just fell down and started to repent for always just keepiong God as a Friend instead of a lover! so sorry Jesus!! :))) well thats pretty much all that has happened today…. well except the Frontline meeting. (which went okay in case you were wondering)

well church was really good this morning!!! man i love Jesus!!! he rocks mhy world sometimes!!! well i think i am going to take a nap and then i have a Frontline meeting at 4, then youth service at 6:30 if anyone is in the Rogers area at that time they should come by and check it out!!! well everyone have a good day today and God Bless!

fmylife:

Today, I was sitting at the park with a friend when a small child approached us. Just as moved off the bridge to let the kid play, he asked if I would like to play the troll under the bridge. I laughed and said no thanks, to which the kid responded ‘but there is nobody else ugly enough.’ FML

 haha i love life and all of the people that live in it!

good morning everybody!!! hope you all have a good day and God bless!!!

well off to bed have to get up at 7:30 for church. then at 4 i have a frontline meeting!! yay i love frontline!!! and Jesus!!